Emily. thoroughly confused about life and what I want. music. track and field. yoga. movie buff.
his blog runs my life. omg.
He called me this morning, we talked, and near the end he asked me what my problems were (if any) with the deployment. He and I are always very honest with each other, so I told him I was tired of him not reciprocating affection, that I felt like I didn’t have a boyfriend, and that I felt like he didn’t want to be with me. He responded that he had expected this to happen, and gave me the choice of breaking it off and maybe continuing again somewhere down the road and told me he would call me the next morning so we could tell each other our decisions. So I cried, feeling like this was what we needed, tried to go to sleep and lied on my bed thinking about it. I knew I couldn’t take 5 1/2 more months of being with him without feeling like we were truly together and without being there for each other emotionally.
As I lie there, nearly asleep, I hear my phone ringing. I see the familiar number and a little confused, I answer. It was him again, and this is what he said: “Hey sweetheart. I had to call you back. I talked to a friend about it and he made me think. He asked me if I would be okay with giving you away, with the chance that you could possibly end up with another guy forever and I wouldn’t get to be with you again. And I said “hell no!” So I ran back over to where the phones are, and there was a pretty long line, but I cut in front of the first guy so that I could get back to you before you made your decision. You’re everything - absolutely everything- I’ve ever wanted in a girl and there’s no way I can give you up. Despite the different plans we have for when I get back, and despite the distance that will still be between us (only 2 hours or so), you do you, I’ll do me, and we’ll make it work. Cuz I want to be with you for the rest of my life and even all my friends know you’re the coolest girl ever. I’m so glad I’ve gotten the chance to be with you and I hope you don’t want it to end so Emily Jean… will you still be my girlfriend? I promise I can make this work.”
How in the world could I ever say no to that? I love this man.
Well since it’s been forever since I posted, I’ll just let y’all know what’s going on! I think Kimball is doing well.. He was very excited to receive my letters and care packages. Although his vehicle got blown up recently, he’s fine and I don’t think anything else has happened like that recently, although i haven’t talked to him in a day or two. I’ve been bombarded with work and school and yesterday was my first day off in 9 days!!! gotta pay rent somehow though. This weekend is fall break, and I’m going to dedicate at least one full day to making kimball care packages. Life is good, except I miss him all the time and despite all you other girls that find it so easy to stay faithful, I’m sort of having a difficult time. After all, we’d only been together for about 2 1/2 months before he left… and hadn’t really spoken since four years before that. But despite that, he’s still number 1 in my heart and I do my best every day to remember how perfect he is and how i’ve never been happier with anyone else. Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Also is anyone else as crazy about the new blink cd as i am?!
It’s like…wait this sounds familar
Then you hear that one verse that makes you remember the song
Then you are like